As hard as it can be to wake up early and get a prompt start to the day, it is something that I thoroughly enjoy. Will you catch me saying otherwise from time to time? Guilty as charged. But that’s just because I haven’t had my coffee yet :P
There is something different and special about the morning. Maybe it’s the way the sun tries to peek through the clouds, the crisp breeze, and the birds chirping. Or maybe, it’s that it is in that moment that the day holds so much potential. Each one a fresh page in the book of our lives. We have the chance to make it what we want to. To wake up on the right side of the bed, and not the wrong one. To be happy and ready to tackle whatever the new day may bring our way. Now don’t get me wrong, there definitely are times when I have woken up on the wrong side - and being stuck in that slump isn’t fun. Heck, I had one of those days yesterday. I woke up past the alarm I had set for myself and got started on my errands late and my anxiety was at the highest it has been in a while due to some personal things going on in my life. For the rest of the day, I felt trapped and dragged down by my anxiety. No matter what I tried to do I just couldn’t seem to escape it. It was like a riptide, continuously pulling me back in and plunging me underwater. I couldn’t even finish half the bowl of pasta that I had made...and that’s when I knew that it was bad. I love pasta, heck I love food in general...and that was my first meal of the day and I could barely even eat it. My life has drastically changed this last week - and maybe that was a factor in it, I don’t know - but what I do know is that I am so thankful that today was better. I went to bed last night feeling completely and utterly drained and woke up this morning ready to take on the day ahead of me. I got up out of bed and decided then and there to have a me day. I did my makeup, threw on a cute and casual new outfit, grabbed my car keys, and headed for the pacific coast.
I went to one of my favorite restaurants - lemonade - picked up my goto meal (although they didn’t have the butterfly tea, sadness - but lavender elderflower is still bomb though) and brought it to the peninsula. After all, food does taste better by the sea. Well, at least to me. Hey, that rhymed lol :P
I spent the next few hours there basking in the sun, sand, and ocean breeze. I journaled, did some devotions, and took a walk. Wiggled my toes in the sand and danced along the shoreline. I was at a total 180 from the day before and I was LOVING it. The beach has always been my happy place and the joy that it brought me today was unimaginable. I felt free and so much lighter - as if the weights had been lifted off of my shoulders. It felt like I was the only one there, that the whole place was mine. I was on top of the world.
This was me. This IS me.
Carefree, bubbly, and dauntless.
It felt fantastic to have that smile back on my face and the pep back in my step. And it felt even better to give a giant middle finger to anxiety and show it who’s boss. It may have gotten the better of me yesterday, but not today. Nope. Not today satan.
Today was my day. And I made sure of it.
Even topped it all off with a little extra self-indulgence and bought myself a gift box from lush - and you best believe I used that baby tonight and I feel so damn rejuvenated and even more ready to take on tomorrow. Whatever it may bring.
Till next week friends.
Stay happy. Stay healthy. Stay Safe.
T <3
PS. its ok to not be ok <3
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