Geesh I don't even know where to begin here, to be honest. For the past almost twenty-five years of my life, you have watched over me like a guardian angel and raised me to be the young woman that I am today. Without you, I wouldn't be where or who I am. You have always been there for me. Whether it be right by my side cheering me on in life, a shoulder to cry on when things got tough, or a hand to hold to help me through. I always looked up to, heck I still up to you. I hope that if I have a daughter one day that she is just as amazing as you are. Your love has always inspired me. Your heart has always guided me. But today we celebrate you - and the absolutely incredible individual that you are.
This post may embarrass you..or make you cry (probably the latter knowing you lol). But imma go for it anyway because writing is the best way that I know how to get my feelings across.
I know that I tell you I love you every day, but I feel that is not enough even then. It never will be in my opinion. I got incredibly lucky - so lucky - when God hand-picked you to be my mom. You and Dad have always been the ones that I have wanted to make proud, and you guys have made me so proud. You’ve always been the one who isn't going anywhere - even when I have been a jerk (hello to my bratty childhood years when I would pack my little daisy backpack and say i was gonna run away). Looking back over the years, I have so many memories - more than you have photos if that's even possible. You are the most committed and faithful woman that I know. Even with your work schedule you somehow always managed to make it to every play and award ceremony. Whether you were there physically or someone you managed to slip in and all of a sudden a bouquet of flowers was waiting for me in class with a handwritten note. You cried with pride at every graduation - especially my college one (your last baby bird was leaving the nest) and celebrated every accomplishment as if it was the greatest thing that I had ever done - even the littlest of things. I know it's a simple little act, but even every time you send heart eyes to my Instagram story posts I can't help but smile because it's such a you thing, and no matter what I do you are always there to root me on.
Over the years I have had countless teachers but you will forever be one of my greatest (don't worry dad you’re my other one lol). You taught me compassion, love, fearlessness ( I could go on lol). You’re the greatest friend that I will ever have and the most amazing woman that I will ever know. I am so blessed to have you in my life and I hope you know that although we don't see each other every day anymore, I am always thinking about you. There is not a day that goes by where we don't talk in some format. And even in those moments where we aren't talking, I am still hoping that you are having an amazing day and are doing well. I know these last few years haven't been the easiest - and just like you have been by my side all these years it is now my turn to return the favor <3
Here is to an absolutely incredible woman - one who continues to age like a mighty fine wine. I hope that you have a spe-taco-ular day, and get to eat all the german chocolate cake and drink all the red wine that your heart desires. I will be cheersing to you after my shift from up here in anaheim. And next time I come down, I expect my fellow shot buddy to have a smores or two with me :P
To you, Queen Mama Z.
Love your little Twister (and your fave - sorry not sorry tartar and tiffy lol) <3
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