Wow…..five months...it’s been five months since I’ve last posted anything on here… so much has happened over the course of these last few hundred days that I don't even know where to honestly begin. I feel like we have so much catching up to do.
It’s giving me the same feeling of coming back from summer break and filling everyone in on all the amazing and totally cool things that I did over the last couple of months. Now don't get me wrong, I did get to do some really fun things (some I’ll share later on, and some I won't hehe). I got to go on adventures and take a vacation for the first time in who knows how long. But these last few months have also been filled with some not-so-great moments.
Although I do love writing and have missed it with all my heart - I took a step back as I was met face to face with a seemingly never-ending flow of anxiety and exhaustion. I tried to sit down numerous times but instead, I was met with writer’s block. I had the words in my head and knew what I wanted to say but for some reason, I just couldn’t get those words out. Like a waterfall whose flow evaporates into the air on the way down. I would spend countless hours staring at my computer screen. An empty white page looking back at me, or a mix of jumbled words losing me in a forever looping maze of confusion. Even right now as I write this all out, it’s still a bit hard for me. There’s so much I want to say, but I know what’s better left for my journal and what’s better left for here. When my feelings take control and when they don't. While I do view this site as a diary of sorts, there are still large aspects of my life that I would like to keep to myself. Moments that I want to just be for my eyes, heart, and mind. Now while I don’t regret anything that I’ve shared and written, I do wish that in some instances I held onto certain aspects for just me, myself, and I. From people who at the time were huge parts of my life and are no longer in it, to people who have come back into it. This last year, especially these last few months alone - have been a roller coaster, as I know that they have been for many. I guess one of the beauties of being human is that we are never complete. We are always changing and growing. Always going through something. Sometimes it’s good and sometimes it’s bad. I try to remind myself that it’s all up to perception. Even the bad times will eventually lead to good ones, right? After all, they do say that we can’t have a rainbow without a little rain. I’ve had my fair share of storms recently, and am still working my way through some, but boy has those rainbows been absolutely beautiful.
Speaking of rainbows. You ever seen the end of one?
People tell us it’s impossible because rainbows are formed by light striking water droplets at just the right angle, but you wanna know what I tell them back.
It’s kinda fun to do the impossible ;)
(oh and I’ve actually seen the end of one, so there’s that :p)
It was definitely a bit of a surreal experience and it helped to remind me that even the simplest of things can make someone happy. We always spend so much time focusing on the bigger picture, and while that is important it’s also important to not forget the little moments as well. In my experience, it’s those little moments that play a bigger factor in the long run because they help to form and create that end result that we are hoping for and desire.
I'm excited to be back and to once again get Here's the T back up and running, And I look forward to serving it piping hot like always ;)
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