Hello friends :) this week I thought we would get a bit more lighthearted and fun. The other day I was scrolling on tik-tok and a video came across on my for you page that said to shuffle Taylor Swift songs and the first twelve will show you how your year will go. *Cue ballads and pop anthems* Being the curious and intrigued person that I am, as well as a fan of her writing (seriously this woman continues to amaze me with the way her mind works and her ability to story-tell the way she does), I went to my apple music and did just that. I pulled her up in my artists and hit the shuffle button in the top right...and well these are the twelve I got lol.
January - A Place In This World
“I don’t know what I want, so don’t ask me. Cause I’m still trying to figure it out. Don’t know what’s down this road, I’m just walking. Trying to see through the rain coming down…… I’ll be strong, I’ll be wrong, oh but life goes on, oh I’m just a girl trying to find a place in this world...maybe I’m just a girl on a mission, but I’m ready to fly.”
This month will be one of discovery
The ups and downs of life and trying to figure out who you are and where you belong in this world. I have to figure it out on my own and I know that along the way there will be good and bad things happening, but just because a mistake is made doesn’t mean the whole world needs to stop. This is a year about strength and creating the life I want, there will be obstacles along the way but I will overcome them
February - Happiness
“There’ll be happiness after you, but there was happiness because of you. Both of these things can be true...there’ll be happiness after me, but there was happiness because of me. Both of these things, I believe - there is happiness…. In our history, across our great divide, there is a glorious sunrise...no one teaches you what to do when a good man hurts you and you know you hurt him too...after giving you the best I had, tell me what to give after that.”
This month will be one of reflection
Moving on from decaying relationships (whether platonic or romantic) but acknowledging the bits of joy that still existed even though they were within a more destructive, hurtful context - what was bad was also good at times, and there will be many more endless good things still to come. You got the best of me at the time, and I hope I got the best of you too. Here Is to wishing for nothing but the best for you.
March - Treacherous
“I can’t decide if it’s a choice, getting swept away. I hear the sound of my own voice asking you to stay. And all we are is skin and bone, trained to get along. Forever going with the flow, but you’re friction. This slope is treacherous, this path is reckless, this slope is treacherous…….this hope is treacherous, this daydream is dangerous… I, I, I like it.”
This month will be one of...mistakes (they gotta happen for us to learn right?)
Falling for someone who you know is dangerous. Every fiber of your being is telling you not to do it, but you can’t help but be drawn to them. You went for it anyway despite how much hurt it can cause, the hurt is overridden by the feeling of being alive (nothing safe is worth the drive).
April - You’re Not Sorry
“All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around. I’ve been giving out chances every time and all you do is let me down. And it’s taking me this long baby but I figured you out, and you’re thinking we’ll be fine again but not this time around….looking so innocent I might believe you if I didn’t know. Could’ve loved you all my life if you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold…..this is the last straw, don’t wanna hurt anymore. And you can tell me that you’re sorry but I don’t believe you baby like I did before. You’re not sorry, no-no-no.”
This month will be one of heartbreak (oooof here we go)
Looks like mr.dangerous breaks my heart - shocker I know lol. They turned out not to be who I thought. I was blinded by their prince charming facade, but they started to show their true colors. Actions speak louder than words. You can say you’re sorry all you want, but if you keep repeating the same action you really show no remorse. The devil is in the details.
May - Bad Blood
“Did you have to do this? I was thinking that you could be trusted. Did you have to ruin what was shining, now its all rusted. Did you have to hit me where I'm weak, baby, I couldn't breathe. I rubbed it in so deep, salt in the wound like you"re laughing right at me...did you think we’d be fine? Still got scars on my back from your knife...Band-aids don't fix bullet holes, you say sorry just for show. You live like that you live with ghosts.”
This month will be one of betrayal (and we are only halfway through the year lmaoooo its fine im fineeee)
What did mr prince charming do now? This dude is really still trying to apologize and not mean it. Orrrrr is this about a toxic friendship? If you are gonna betray or double-cross me, please come forward now so that we can get it over with, sound good? Lol.
June - If This Was A Movie
“Even though I know you’re not there, I was playing back a thousand memories, baby. Thinking about everything we've been through….I know people change and these things happen, but I remember how it was back then...come back to me like you would if this was a movie...I know that we could work this out somehow, but if this was a movie you’d be here by now.”
This month will be one of wishing (a girl can hope alright)
Everything happens for a reason, but you can still wish that it all ended differently than it truly did. The want for a fairytale, but being met with the reality and knowing that it was and is out of the cards because life isn't a movie.
July - I Knew You Were Trouble
“Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in, so shame on me now. Flew me to places I’d never been ‘til you put me down...now I'm lyin on the cold hard ground…..no apologies, he’ll never see you cry. Pretends he doesn't know that he's the reason why you’re drowning….and I heard you moved on from whispers on the street. A new notch in your belt is all i'll ever be….and the saddest fear comes creepin in, that you never loved me, or her, or anyone, or anything.”
This month will be one of frustration
Disappointed with myself because I allowed my heart and trust to be broken, I put myself in that position to be heartbroken. And even though I knew there were red flags I went for it anyway. You shouldn't be with that person but you threw all caution to the wind for the thrill. You change yourself to satisfy that person, and end up being used and treated horribly without realizing it at first, and when you do it feels like you are drowning in your doubts, fears, and hurt.
August - Style
“Midnight, you come pick me up, no headlights. Long drive, could end in burning flames or paradise. Fade into view, oh. Its been a while since I have even heard from you. And I should tell you to leave cause I know exactly where it leads, but I watch it go round and round each time.You got that james dean daydream look in your eye, and I got that red lip classic thing that you like. And when we go crashing down, we come back every time ‘cause we never go out of style.”
This month will be one of cycles
You know that this person is no good for you, but when they show back up in your life your heart longs for them as they still have a piece of it. You keep putting yourself back into the position that could (and does time and time again) result in burning flames and hurt...No matter how hard you try for that daydream classic Hollywood romance. It’s something that would never work out but at the moment seems so right. It may look good on the outside, but it doesn’t feel good on the inside. Feelings aren’t a trend, so when are you going to stop treating them like one.
September - The Moment I Knew
“You should've been there. Should’ve burst through the door with that ‘baby I'm right here’ smile; and it would’ve felt like a million little shining stars had just aligned and I would’ve been so happy….I try not to fall apart, and the sinking feeling starts, as I say hopelessly ‘he said he’d be here’.....what do you say when tears are streaming down your face in front of everyone you know? And what do you do when the one who means the most to you is the one who didn't show?...you called me later and said ‘I’m sorry I didn't make it’ and I said ‘i’m sorry too’ and that was the moment I knew”
This month will be one of realization
Some things are meant to last a lifetime. Others aren't. People will come and go in your life. They will impact you in countless ways. It’s magical when someone makes your world stop and your heart skip a beat...but at what cost? You’re mental health and happiness should not be sacrificed at the expense of someone else. A half-ass relationship is not a relationship at all. You deserve someone who will give you their all just as you have given them yours.
October - I Forgot That You Existed
“How many days did i spend thinkin’ bout how you did me wrong, wrong, wrong? Lived in the shade you were throwin til all of my sunshine was gone, gone, gone. And i couldn't get away from ya, in my feelings more than drake, so yeah. Your name on my lips, tongue-tied. Free rent, livin in my mind. But then something happened one magical night…...And i would've stuck around for ya, would’ve fought the whole town, so yeah. Would've been right there, front row even if nobody came to your show, but you showed who you are, then one magical night I forgot that you existed and I thought that it would kill me, but it didn't. And it was so nice, so peaceful and quiet. I forgot that you existed. It isn't love, it isn't hate, it's just indifference.”
This month will be one of moving on
This year has put ya in for a whirlwind these last few months, but gone are the days that you allowed others’ hurtful actions to impact you. And hello to feeling emotionally liberated. You are free from the struggle and pain that they brought into your life and have broken free from the chains of heartbreak. Ready to take on the world and conquer it on your own. And despite all the hurt they caused you, you don't hate them. They no longer live in your head or heart rent free and instead you are met with peace.
November - Long Live
“Long live the walls we crashed through. All the kingdom lights shined just for me and you. I was screaming, long live all the magic we made, and bring on the pretenders I'm not afraid. Long live the mountains we moved. I had the time of my life-fighting dragons with you….and long live that look on your face, one day we will be remembered.”
This month will be one of gratefulness
After a roller coaster of year, you look back on it and smile at the times that were good. Yes, you went through it and yes there were a lot of moments that sucked and hurt...but there was also a lot that was full of magic. And now, looking back on it you are triumphant. You built yourself back up brick by brick. It's the end of a decade, and soon to be the beginning of a new one. Embrace it.
December - New Years Day
“You squeeze my hand three times in the back of a taxi. I can tell that it's gonna be a long road. I’ll be there if you’re the toast of the town, babe. Or if you strike out and you’re crawling home. Don't read the last page. But I stay when it's hard or it's wrong or we're making mistakes. I want your midnights. But I’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on new years day….please don't ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere(hold onto the memories they will hold onto you) .”
This month will be one of focus and new beginnings
Some people stay just for the party. Others stay for a lifetime. You had your fair share of those who left, but never forget those who always stayed. The ones who were there for you when you felt like your world was falling apart, and vice versa. They are the ones that deserve your time and energy. Focus on them, and focus on yourself. You conquered a hell of a lot this year and it’s time to look forward. Use this new year to begin again, and while you shouldn’t focus on the negative of the last year, never forget the lessons it taught you and the strength that it gave. Hold onto the good memories and let go of the bad.
Welpppp there ya have it folks, my year according to Taylor Swift songs lol. Seems like I'm really in for it huh? They weren't kidding with the whole quarter-life crisis thing when you turn 25 lol.
I guess we will just have to see if any of these ring true come December 31st :P
So far January was pretty spot on, but maybe we could just..you know...skip March to like September? Just maybe :D
I'm kidding (kinda lol) bring it on!!
What are your guys' 12 songs, let me know in the comments below!
Till next week friends.
Stay happy, stay healthy, stay safe <3
If you need me, I will be eating some popcorn and sipping on wine while I contemplate my life after this lol
- T
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